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back again

2007-07-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged here!
was blogging in my friendster blog previously.
again. i forgot my pw again.
hahas.

mst just ended this week. so happy.
finally i feel like i'm having a holiday..
flunk my papers as usual.
i can't even finish my cost! a whole handsome 10 marks was gone.
wasted.
i was so super duper sad on tue that i felt like crying.
10m!!!! 10*2=20m!
the paper was 50m. 1/5 of my marks gone.
ah. forget it. it's over.

on thu after the last paper, went out with fel and lina.
went orchard and vivo.
zara was having sale.
it was extremely crowded man!
bought 2 zara tees at taka oulet and vivo outlet. $19.90 per tees only. u.p was $29.90!
3 of us went crystal jade to eat la mian.
hahas. was so filling.
vivo is so huge that we had a hard time looking for the shops we wanna visit.
had a hard time find the face shop.
thanks to me. i saw the shop first!
after that we had a hard time finding the body shop.
bought my cleansing milk from body shop too..
we shopped till 9+pm and left vivo.
took train all the way to hougang. fel and lina alight at douby gaut.

went bras basah today.
passed by OG. OG got sale.
saw a red ladies wallet. $15.90 only.
was so tempted to buy. but i refrain myself from spending coz i already bot a comoditee ladies handbag there at $33.90.
spent a lot this GSS.

now slacking. mon got sch.. zzzzzzzz

2007-02-08T01:48:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!

well well. exams were just over!
and i flunk like SHIT!
half of fom's paper created lots of qn marks for me.
and i fell asleep during the paper!!!! coz it's a morning paper. zzz
stats ain't any better. 2h paper, i've finished in 1h.
reason: i dunno how to do.
hahas. sians. some of the mcq i din even bother to calculate. coz i just see one nice choice den choose. hahas.
sitting next to alvin was so damn stress. he's got like lots of stuff to write. i sat there, felt gan chiong. coz i nth to write. last few min, i even drew keropi on my qn paper. was so damn bored.
zzz... honour roll for this sem is confirm gone one! hahas. shd get a frame to frame my previous honour roll. coz tt may be the only one i could get in my poly days.
sian la.. i'll die if i forward module. hahas.

sians sians.
hols are here!
cny coming soon too!
i wanna buy new clothes and bags and shoes!!!
will start hunting for them tmr =)

2007-01-30T02:11:00.000+08:00

1st entry of the year.. and it'll be a negative one.. hahahs!

sian..... !!!!!! i'm reali damn damn DAMN last min this time round. guess wad. in 11+h time is my paper.. and! i haven even complete studying half of it. omg! wad the hell...! this time round is hell lot worst then the previous time.. even if i'm damn last min.. but usually is for tests. exams is at least two days before? this time is hell lot horrible! holy shit! ahhh. less than 12 hours... minus 6-7h sleeping time.. omg! ahhhh.. some more i've not even touched other modules. i even pon the stats rev class this week. too tired and sleepy lazy go... the tot of taking 74 makes me sian.. ahhh.. shd be studying now but end up blogging. hahas. i can't concentrate. dunno y. i hate econs la.. i practically dun like any modules la.. hahas.. dun study best! =P

may god bless me.. =)

zZzzzzzz... finished my apollo waffle stick le.. haiz. still dun feel liek studyin.. sian.. will call my dear later ba.. coz i bored. heheh... shhh..

aft all... still one most impt sentence..

MAY GOD BLESS ME!!!

thanks thanks

2006-11-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

more wishes received today! hahas..
thanks for the smses from huiyee, junyi, jasmine sim, hankee(god brother) and gary and xiuxuan.. hahas..
thanks for the new urban male heels from ashley, angelina, shumei, felicia chan, father, khim, yurui, ziwei, james, alvin and zongsheng. hahas.. big thanks to u guys..!
thanks for the friendster testi from weixiang, yuquan (ah zor), felicia chua (gan mei mei in xms), yew fai and jordan.. woots. thanks!

happy bday to me =)

2006-11-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

woots. i'm 17!!!!!
wheeeee..
at 11.58pm of 1st nov.. i receive my first bday wish.. from Ash..
wah.. surprising leh!!! din expect ash's sms.. lols
den followed my shumei in msn.. after tt is zongsheng.. followed by eT. den received smses from angelina and fel... woots.. and the quite touchin one is (shi xiong) kok rui.. hahas.. he rmb leh.. (maybe he recorded it in his hp calendar.. guess only..).. and followed by angeline den my dear (just muack muack on msn, but he gave me the advance pressie last week..) followed by janson, yurui and zhenhe... but reali a great thanks to them.. is reali touching and happy tt at least some one out there bother to spend a few seconds to msg me.. reali touched.. hehes. thanks guys..

and i just realise.. something is v wrong with my blog...

ahhh.. astronomy test later.. zzz..
haven finish econs tutorial.. ahhh...

omg

2006-10-30T08:29:00.000+08:00

zZz... im blog is rotting like shit.
i even forgot my pw. -.0
i'm having lesson now.. lols.
zZz.. dunno wad cher saying.
k la.. nth to say. bye.

2006-08-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

muahahaha! 3 more weeks to hols!!!
wheeeeeeeee! this coming week is study week..
den followed by my papers! den it's 1 mth hol!
wheeee.. perhaps i shd get a holiday job.. need $$$ la.. if not can't go shopping le.. hahas..
1st thing i gonna do after my econs paper is... get a haircut..!
sian of my current haircut le.. had it with me for like... 1 and a half yrs..? time for a change.. gonna dye hair too.. my red coloured hair fade damn long ago.. i told my friends i gonna dye during the previous hol.. but till now, i haven get things done.. hahas..
zZz.. gonna clear my wardrobe too... so messy.. some more i keep repeating the clothes i wear to sch everytime. lazy to dig out other clothes to wear.. hahas..
v sian.. still gotta go back to sch on thu and fri for tests. haiz.. i hate going to sch on fri.. the bus is always so damn crowded with working people and NP students.. everytime needa squeeze like a sardine.. hahas..
yawnn.. shall end here now..

2006-08-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

zongsheng sent me a song ytd: boston - augustana
gonna slap him some day. made me nostalgic. grr!
this song reminded me of a guy frn i used to be pretty close with last yr. hahas.
he likes rock, same as me.. but he like emo-punk while i like punk. hahas
nv contact each other reali long. i doubt he'd rmb me. lols

sians.
i'm hell damn slack this term.
lols.

haiz.........................................................................................................................................
life sux.

2006-07-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

today i spent abt 80plus
hahas.
went orchard... bot my neckerman shoes.
then bot 2 tubes from mango (isetan, tangs there), 1 tube from mango (wisma), 1 racerback and 1 tube from zara outlets at wisma and wheelock place respectively. also bot my blue nail polish from face shop le.. initially wanted to get from missha. coz the bottle is nice.. bt lazy go there la. hahas.. like tt spend till 80+. sian.
so crowded in both places (mango and zara). clothes there are all in a mess. want find things also difficult. yawn.. now doing tt stupid crappy IDEAs proj..

2006-06-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

finally sign in and update le..
hehe.. yay!
i got an esprit bag at j8 just now..
wheeeeee.. love at first sight ya.
i rmb i saw this lady carrying the bigger version of this design raffles city the previous time.
love it man.. i kept lookin at her bag.
finally got it today! the smaller one.. after all i need a proper handbag.. hahas..
and it's having a 50% off! grab it at once. cost me abt $25.
hahas. i was deciding b/w the green and the black one.
my bf ask me get the black one.. coz he doesn't like the green one.. lol..
den i wanted the green one coz its time for a change from black bags ya..
in the end he ask me get the other colour - blue...
eeeeeeeeee.. i dun like blue.
i used to be crazy over blue in pri and lower sec.
i guess i've gt too much blue stuff and now im so sick of tt colour.
haha.. so after a few min of consideration.. i gt the green one!
hehe... so happy. one more new bag.
big headache now! haven gt shoes!
nth fancy me yet.. sadded. hahas! =)

2006-05-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

just realise this blog has been with me for a yr.. time flies..

ever since 6.15pm on thu onwards, i've been slacking.. slacking.. and slacking..
nxt week still got test.. zZz.. sian..
what's more? it's on a fri..
so sad.. can't go shopping after sch.. coz it'll be in the evening if i do tt..
dots.. evening.. so many pp..
hahas..

ytd morning, i tot i'll be late for class.
den i told my frenz to leave 1st.
i alighted a stop b4 dover. at the bus stop nearest to sb..
walk to t19.. slowly take lift.. walk slightly faster to t22 thinking im late..
open the door of 2247!
*shocked*
y nobody de?
am i in the right rm?
called up fel. she said they were still on the way..
i sat down and waited..
saw khim walk pass the lab.. followed by the others..
how come none of them came in..
dots...
i opened the door.. check if im in the right room..
correct ma! 2247.. dunno hu sae" eh..? shirlyn...!" think is yurui and james
den i told them.. y are u guys all standing there?
james sae "2247 wad"
den i re "2247 is here ma!"
hahas..
lols.. den they all went in.. hahas..
i tot im late.. yet im the 1st to reach.. lol

received a msg during lesson. it's meizhu.
meizhu invited me to tp's funfair.. bt it's reali a pity i can't make it ytd..
im reali glad tt aft graduation.. i still manage to keep in touch with some of them despite being in different schs..

ec cher din come.. 3h in sch do nth except lunch at fc 4
when i was abt to leave, someone pulled my bag..
it's gary.. alamak.. hahas.. he was at the table behind me.. din realise tt.. lol

actually i wanted to pon MOB.. since ec cher is not here..
in the end din pon..

watched da vinci code after sch.
not bad.. nice.. bt a bit draggy.. it's lucky tt i read the book last yr..
if not i will not be able to understand wad the hell it's going on..

aft movie.. shumei and felicia went off..
i went to meet my dear..
well.. after tt we walked around orchard trying to find a helloshop..
met another felicia in my class. hahas.. wad a coincidence!
went off from orchard ard 8+..
back to same old place to eat dan dan la mian.. hahas..

tt's how i spend my fri... =)

2006-05-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

alamak..
do i look like a kid.
last wed. went clementi's arcade cum pool
my frn and i were ask to check ic..
dots..
we told her.. we now in poly liao.
den she.. "orh.... poly 17 yr old le huh" okok..
den i told her we finish sch so we came here.
dots.. actually is only brk la.. not end class. hahax..
zZz

2006-04-01T11:13:00.000+08:00

sian........ long time since i last signed in? one week le ba.
bz with my stupid online store that no one will visit like this stupid blog of mine. haha
since im free now, so i sign in lo... =p

i can't imagine.. i woke up early specially on today.
for wad?
for my otah and nasi lemak breakfast.
i woke up at ten.
bt wad's the time now?
11.22pm. got otah no nasi lemak
mum must have assume i wake up late again.
coz i always wake up at 12pm like tt.. recently even 1+..
bo bian.. slp late wake up late.
bt i slpt at 4am ytd and woke up at 10am this morning.
for my food!
zZz... still waiting for my mum

2006-03-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

oh man. im so sad..
boo hoo hoo..

2006-03-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

the stupid tripod webby is finally done!!!!
yay..
can rest le..
rush for 3-4 days liao.
now.. come to think of it i think i'll fail. nvm la
just make for fun ba. =)

2006-03-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

sian neh.
today i went to that stall..
i intended to buy the pearl thingy.
and guess wad?
that auntie change her selling price of the pearls.
ahhhh..
last week i went she say $2 for 50..
but tt time i din buy thinkin i wun need it.
then today i went.. wantin to buy it coz i wanna use it.
she say $3 for 50..
she denied saying $2 for 50.. duh..
sad ah..
bluff me..
qi pian wo gan qing.
in the end. i still bot it. =(

and one damn thing.
i msg my manager regarding my pay.
damn sia.. nv re me.
sux la... i'll nv work there again. NEVER!

2006-03-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

oh man.
i'm feeling nostalgic now...
the feeling just came suddenly..
i feel so lonely..
i miss alot of things in the past.
i miss my sch life in xms. miss my fomer class 4e1...
izit wad dis will happen when u stay at home for too long...?
ever since o lvl... if i still rmb correctly.. the last paper was on 18 nov 2005.
since tt day till now. i've been slacking.
i miss xinmin. miss 4e1.. just suddenly.
everyone seem to have 4gotten me.. perhaps dey reali do.
all of them are so bz.. bz with their new life in jcs.
for those going poly.. excluding me.. are all bz with work etc..
haiz. so lonely. so sad.
this week is sch hols for pri, sec and jc.
but everyone still seem to be as bz as a bee..
haiz. only me..
rotting rotting rotting.
sianx.

i just realised that at 2.38 am.
i cannot find any more gals online. except me...
are they all asleep.. or having a great time partying?
hahax...

rotting......................

i'm hungry now...

2006-03-15T02:12:00.000+08:00

oh man.
my legs and hands are so numb.
i've been sitting in front of the com for the past 4h.
this afternoon. i was in ft of the com for 4h too..
hahax. zZz
i can't type now. esp my right hand.
was using it to click the mouse for the past 4h.
now so numb. haha.
my back aches too..
Zzz..

u must be wondering y am i in ft of the com for so many hours.
coz im creating a webby at tripod.
"for wad?" u will sure be asking.
for fun. hahax.
i use their default template... zZz.. so nan kan..
i change and change ..
edit and edit.
load and load.
finally.
after doing three different templates...
i've decided on one.
and i nv tot of using that template coz it's yellow!
eek! i hate yellow.
hahax. bt the 1st one..
blue one (though i dun reali like blue, my 2nd most hated color)
has got limited space to load my stuff..
sian. so i changed to the 2nd one.
purple! my fav.
bt it doesn't suit my foto. so bo bian. change.
yawn.
though im not reali satisfied with the webpage i've now..
bt it's the best among the worst. hahax.
bo bian den.
hmm... i'm oni half done.
8H! half done.
zZz.. i guess i've to sacrifice another 10 or 20 hours to have the things complete.
regretted not starting early. coz i've been considering to make one.
and when i've finally decided.. i've less than a mth to do my stuff.
zZz.. sch opening soon.
yawn.

nightmares are beginning in 3+ weeks time...
bo bian. who ask me go choose sp..
so fast start sch.
zZz..

2006-03-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

DAMN!
printer spoil!
i tot is no ink.
bot new ink
NEW BLACK AND COLOR INK!
all gone to drain.
coz the prob lies wif printer.
bloody hell!
when i dun need a printer.
there were two printer ready to be used at anytime.
when i desperately need a printer.
both spoilt.
grrrr....
no choice.

that's life.

2006-03-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

i'm so SAD!
i lost my zhu zhu at suntec IT show...
i only notice it's wasn't hung on my fone anymore when i was at 4th floor.
sad.. must have lost it on 6th floor.
come to think of it... must be lost at the booth where i bot the cd covers.
coz i only took out my hp from my bag there...!
sadx!

2006-03-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

ytd sprain my ankle when i went market to get tt clairol herbal essence condtioner.
damn. nvm.
it still hurts today. zZz

okie.
seriously, i don't know if i did make the right choice.
i did not regret choosing a poly instead of jc.
i've long made up my mind of going poly before the results were release.
even though i did consider choosing nyjc aft getting my result.
in the end. i decided on poly. hahaz
i know i will never want to take the subj available in JCs.
i know i'll screw up in GP.
after all i also didn't apply for the 3mths jc course.
so forget it.
i nv regret putting singapore poly as my 1st choice.
though pp kept asking me y i dun choose np.. inc my elder bro.
1st thing np is famous for its business course..
2nd, it's nearer than sp.
BUT!
i still din regret putting sp as my 1st choice.
but now. i'm starting to wonder if i chose the right course.
seriously, i'm not keen in taking up my course.
i got my 1st choice. as expected..
i wonder if optometry will be a better choice.
but i put it as my last choice.. my 6th choice..
haiz.
forget it.
i don't wanna spend extra time to appeal.
i guess i'll still stick to my current course.

SP.. zZz...
i can't imagine my life in future.
the journey to school will be a real torture.
so far! haha..
but i can't blame anyone, can i?
i made the final decision of going sp.
so i just have to accept that fact.
IT'S SO FAR!
even furthur than ngee ann...
that's y my brother can't understand why i didn't follow his footstep of choosing np over sp.
coz it's so far.
haha.. my brother's poly life and mine will be the same.
though he's an ex student of np. i'm a soon-to-be student of sp.
our lives are stuck with bus 74!
sian leh...! 74 again.
when i was studying in xms... i took 74 or 165 to sch.
now, i'm still stuck with 74.. but travelling in a different direction...

i think i've got to get a mp3 player soon.
keep me occupied thru the journey.
if not i'll doze off..
when i was still in xinmin. the 15 min ride could make me doze off.
needless to say bout the 1+ hour ride to sp.

yawn...
not sure if i can adapt my new env...
there's only one frn of mine in class going to sp with me.
so pathetic. haiz.
and the worst thing is we are of different course.
aft the posting, i just discovered i've another two frenz of mine frm other sch going to sp too.
we'll be all in the same block.
but definitely different class.
coz we took different business course..
Zzzz... only me! i'm alone! ahhhhhhh!

ok... postings aside...
now my pay
damn it.
my company shortchanged me by 4 bucks.
damn..
i check my acc today.
4 dollars leh.
suppose to be $5. but that manager say 15 min not inclusive.
i actually know la. haha.
k la.. 4 bucks la.
means me working there 1h sia.
my manager ask me to contact him on mon again.
he'll check for me..
fine...
i'll see what they have to say..
i hope i can get back my 4 bucks.
v xim tia leh.... 4 bucks.
my pay is already peanuts.
still wanto eat my money.
den everytime i work extra also din gei gao with them.
bloody hell still want eat me.
they sux lo.
1st they owe our pay. drag until today den qcd.
nxt mon den can get the cash.
now still eat me one hour pay.
darn.
@^$!%$%^!#!&%*$#!$#@^*&%@#!@#$%
HURMPH!

sian...
i wonder if i shd go market tmr.
to visit that stall..
v lazy leh....
but .. i'm tempted to buy the stuff there to play...
i'm left with about 1mth to play before school starts..

zZz..
next week gonna ask angeline go gai gai with me.
i pang seh her twice this week le.
nxt week cannot pang seh her liao.
haha....
then still need pei my dear too..
he now hol start liao.
alamak.
everytime like that.
last mth i so damn free..
they all as busy as bee..
now both of them need me pei liao...
my turn to be bz!
hahaz. zZz

2006-03-03T11:46:00.000+08:00

ok i was woken up by my frn angeline...
bt still i missed her call.
i read my msgs.
everyone is asking me my postings
zZz....
ok.. so i start to get panic..
y everyone asking me the same qn...
got up the bed..
i went to the net to check w/o washing up
y is everyone so gan jiong
i din even give a damn bout it.

online. i dunno which webby to go.
was at the MOE webby.
so blur.
i'm still half awake.
i can't read clearly.
hahax.

ok check le..
expected..
zZz.. no fun...

i'm going to wash up soon.
aft i update my stuff yeah.
sian.. sch starting in apr..
yawn.
one more mth to play!
MUST PLAY HARD!

2006-03-02T15:38:00.000+08:00

duh.
my mum went to the stall help me ask le
the lady boss still sae everyday got open
damn la.
den y tt time sat i go din open!
grr..
i still nida get my stuff frm dere.
though i found substitutes frm amk central
but tt's not exactly wad i wan
sooooooo
i'll still have to make a trip down to her stall again..
nvm... nxt time den i go.
probably nxt week ba.
zZz... dun tell me nxt time still so heng she din open again sia.
haha............

yeah! once i got my stuff i can make wad i wan le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

muahahahhahahahahaa!

2006-02-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

wad can i do?
i call u.. u dun wanna ans my fone
4gt it.
dun tok.
dun eva tok..

*dratsab*

2006-02-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

haiz.
i tot it's been fine le.. aft so many times.
but nth changed
everything still remained.
i wonder how long i can cont to hold on...

i hate pp to ask me wad i want when they have no choices given to me
I HATE THIS! GET IT?
damn... bloody hell....

sometimes when u r angry.
it did bother me.
but somehow..
it didn't bother me as much now compared to the past..
hur hur.
i guess im pretty sick of it.
i'm sick of agreeing to everything u say.
YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.
damn.
i hate this.

go ahead and flare up.
can't we try to compromise each other?
i ren u ren v jiu le..
u take it for granted. fine. bloody hell.

I'M BLOODY TIRED!
DAMN PISSED OFF!
darn.

dun feel happy.
STRESSED!
when everyone wants me to be wad they want me to be
hell!
i dun wan!
HELL!
ALL GO TO HELL!

to you you you...:
go ahead be angry.

i'm SICK of it.

2006-02-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

sian.. i'm so angry!
that stupid stall bluff me!
say everyday also open!
in da end? i went on wed afternoon and sat morning!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!
i din open!
i'm angry! i specially go there! boo hoo...
i kong huan xi yi chang. *sadx*

sian..

i juz now so blur.
i 8.30pm.
den i woke up at 11.35pm.
i tot it's morning le!
den look at the fone. alamak!
11.35pm!

pengs. so come online lo..

chatting with my fren now.................

2006-02-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

woots.
done! my new blogskin.
haha... will cont to edit furthur.
tmr gt sumtin on.

i guess no one will give a damn to my blog aniwae
coz these are all boring stuff bout me yeah
hahax...!

2006-02-20T17:57:00.000+08:00

woots.

i love myself..

bot this for myself on last 2nd day of work~ last thu. =p

2006-02-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

oh man.. so sian
zZz... i'm v v v bored!

2006-02-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

okie.. sian.. i've decided!

i'm going poly! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2006-02-11T11:10:00.000+08:00

okie. got my results ytd.
not too good compared with the pp frm xms yeah.
for myself is already a gr8 improvement
am damn satisfied with my results.
mdm ee used to say tt my amaths will be c5.
the most i can gt in O lvl is B4.
but im so bloody happy i proved her wrong.....!
muahahahahaha!

now im confused. shd i go jc or poly?
if i go jc. nyjc will be my choice. if go poly, sp will be choice.
which one?
haix....!

going home aft taking results. hehe.

2006-02-09T04:23:00.000+08:00

4.23am.. am still here..
not many pp online.. yawn......
maybe i shd just go slp...
back aching le..

2006-02-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

yup yup..
so long din sign in le...
so bored!
everyday at hm.. yawn yawn...!

2006-01-25T18:02:00.000+08:00

i've dyed my hair.
bt the color still no diff..
looks like black... yawn..
sian..

2006-01-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

alamak.

spent 75 bucks..

converse shoe.

puremilk tees..

duh..

2006-01-10T02:37:00.000+08:00

i can't imagine what my life wud be starting frm now...
so many constraints...
i feel trapped..
lols...

no more.. all gone..

juz one place...

one question..

led to a promise...

all haf changed...

sianx.

2006-01-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

bot my new hp le..
nokia 6111. haha...
actually want sony ericsson k750i bt too ex..
so suan le..

my nokia 6111.. still charging.. yawn..
tmr think i'll go buy bluetooth..

2005-12-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

so sad.. im ill..

was at hm da whole day today.

vomited ytd..

zZz..

IT"S THE LAST DAY OF 2oo5!

wheee..

bt im stuck at hm..

no countdowns for me...

am so horribly sad..

2005-12-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

damn.. my legs are aching! hahaz!

im sick of disney characters and christmas carols! -.-

2005-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

my nails are light blue!
guess wad?
i finished the whole bottle of nail polish.. not small bottle one some more..
initially is 4/5 of da bottle..
now all gone!
wheeeeeee!
aniwae i dun reali lyk dis color.. finish oso not xim tia =)

2005-12-08T02:12:00.000+08:00

haiz.. tried to change my blog music bt can't..
4gt it..
i dun wanna try le..
juz stick wif my old one..

damn.. dunno wad did i eat tt cause such prob..
stomach feel kinda weird..
at least im feelin much better now..

how..?
i feel so useless..
i can't help u when u need me..
i wonder if u r ok now..
haiz..
reali reali v v v worried..
haiz.. how?
wad happen?
dun tin i'll slp tonite until i make sure tt ya fine..
all my fault..
im so useless.. =(
i'm sorry ='(

2005-11-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

was at cp juz now..
aft tt went to da parsamalam near rivervale mall
bot otah, prawnball and tapioca cake..
sat at da void deck wif tang tang.

zZz.. sat in ft of the com fer da past 2-3 h le
searchin fer a suitable hp frm 11pm till now..
now aft Os lotx of time
gotta find one now..
my e700a spoil frm aug till now..
4 mths le! =(

finally find something tt suits me..
design of da hp is kinda attractive (to me)
bt dunno the price yet.. now still checkin..
yawnZ...

tt sony ericsson w800i damn chio sia.. love it so much..
bt damn ex nia..
im so broke..
howto buy?
$3 left leh..
so sad.. =(

cont checkin fer da price...

2005-11-25T19:05:00.000+08:00

dot.. ytd mit my frn calvin...
wah seh.. go orchard walk..
finish walkin whole of orchard walk to plaza sing..
go there shop shop den go mrt de arcade awhile..
play daytona..
dis stuck up gal wan challenge me.. zZz..
initially i win her...
bt she no intergrity..
go use short cut.
*pui*
win liao tin she v hao lian.. sai la..
if i use short cut i win her lo..
dis kinda jian ren no skill noe will lose last round use dis kinda jian zao..
win nvm.. still give me tt stuck up haolian look.
xiao mei mei.. so b***h sia..
win le still buay song me.. siao de..
diao diao diao.. ltr her eyes pain.. wahahahahahaha..
hurmp.. da ren bu ji xiao ren guo..
*bleahx..

aft tt walk to bugis..
walk walk walk.. den walk to suntec..
legs aching ah!!!

2005-11-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

woOts..
got back my report book.. cca record form.. testi.. wad form A.. etc frm sch..
and oso..
thx this bunch of frnz fer their xtremely belated present.
xiuxuan fer da necklace... pris, jess, jasmine and meizhu fer da giraffe, p case and chewing gum corr tape.. thx darlings!

juz got my new haircut today yeah..
din reali turn out well..
fringe is so damn short.. oh man..
i look so to0t!

paint my nails too..
purple.. hehe.. my fav color yeah..
haha

so tired.. went out everyday ever since the day aft O lvl exam..
exhausted..

yawnz.....

2005-11-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

woots..
went bugis wif tang tang ytd..
so sian.. there so boring..
finally bot my famous amos cookies!!!! yummy!

today went hougang mall and heartland mall wif my frn..
zZz..
bot a dress and skirt.. and accessories like earrings.. nail polish.. etc etc

well. still kinda bored..
wed nida go bck sch..
yawnz yawnz...

2005-11-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

O LEVEL IS OVER!!!!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

2005-11-02T10:09:00.000+08:00

well.. i broke my promise on not coming online..
nvm la.. today bday.. come see see la..
hehe..

so sian.. 16 yr old le..
yawn yawn..

thx dis pp fer wishing me happy bday thru

sms: my tang tang, calvin, zhenhe, jasmine sim ah gong, jess, kok rui shi xiong, nigel, da joyce, jasmine lim da jie, grace (frm xijuying), angeline (my pri sch bud), chiow woon and felicia mei!

email: kevin..

msn: rei horng, leonard, and those tt i 4gt the name le.. paiseh.. =p

friendst3r testi: cai xiang, yew fai...

thx my tang tang fer giving me the 1st bday present: a snoopy ang gong kia.. hehe
thx dad and bro giv me ang bao.. lol

i know dis is v lil pp la.. bt reali v touched.. hehe.. aft all.. now is Os la.. everyone is mugging like hell.. oni me still slacking n crapping.. lol..

well so sian.. let me sing happy bday song to myself ba..

happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to shirlyn.. happy birthday to me.. hehe.. *siao*

2005-10-23T12:14:00.000+08:00

well.. mix feelings..
was elated that the so-called last day of school in xinmin fer me on mon is over

sad and delighted..

sad: aft all, i've spent the past 4 yrs there.. time reali flies.. miss everything dere.. at old xinmin hougang site, jalan kayu site last 2 yrs and new xinmin site dis yr.. a doleful loss you called that?

happy: coz i gonna proceed to another stage of my life soon! hehe..

sian..

Os coming soon..
well.. i haven reali study during this study break..
feel as if im having a hol..
duh...

zZz.. still can't make it fer emaths mock..
damn.. gt an a2.. juz short of one mark to a1.. damn.. all thx to my careless mistakes..bout 6 marks i guess..
needless to say.. i flunk my amaths horribly..haha

sian.. nxt tue chem prac.. den thurs phy prac..
the wk aft nxt wk.. 31st my higher chi paper..
2nd nov my bday..
maybe will slack tt day..
7th cont Os.. last day 18th..
zZz.. 1st thing to do on my last day of Os: rush hm and slp!

i haven started revision..
s.o.s! help!!!!
ahhhh!
yawn..

sun will be my last day comin online b4 Os..
guess i reali meant it dis time.. haha..

sian..

2005-10-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

oh man.. im down now.. out of the blue..
in a state of depression?

all i ask for is a simple life..
freak.. that's crap i noe..
fat hope shirlyn..
simple? nth in this world is simple for you gal..

i reali hate myself sometimes..
i dun seem to be leading a life i want..
i dun seem to be living for myself.
i've all along believe that i can take charge of my own life..
WRONG!
that's just a dream that will never come true..
i've to abide by all the stupid rules set by others.. follow pple's order..
i can't take it..
plz dun pin high hopes on me..
i wun be able to fulfil ani of ur wishes..
it's really damn sickening.. haiz..

who can i blame?
no one else but myself...

im just a stupid, inexperience freak in this world..
innocent or ignorant you call that?
kinda yes..
i dun understand myself sometimes too..
needless to say bout the pp around me..
hur hur..

next..
im running out of time..
O level's coming..
still slacking..
still wasting my precious time on stupid and useless idiotic stuff..
for instance writing this entry...?
slacked for the past 72 hours.. zZz..
what the shit am i doing..
just dun have the motivation..
just dun feel like studying..
i dun feel the pressure.. the stress...
duh...
bad bad bad..

im still falling..
falling into a bottomless pit..
still falling.. i can't see my future..
what will become of me?

c'mon.. shirlyn..
WAKE UP!
stop fantasizing..!
these things will never come true..

still dreaming...
haiz..

another thing
guess this yr i'll be alone fer my bday again..
thx to my Os aniwae..
im ready to flunk my Os.. haha
celebrate wif me anione?

i dun feel happy.. i can't smile.. sigh
i wanna come back to reality.. can some kind soul lend me a helping hand?

2005-10-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

i wan my "ya ya"!!!

2005-10-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

yay.. nxt tue study brk le..
haha.. no nid go sch..
wheeeeee

2005-09-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

returned the test tube to sch le..

sobx sobx..

2005-09-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

awww...

i feel like a stupid/foolish idiot/maron/imbecile

sad sad.. zZz.. damn freak.. im a freak..

im still in my lala land..

duh..

wake me up...

2005-09-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

yeah!

prelims over!!! =)

2005-09-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

frustrated and more frustrated..

i've not finished my amaths paper..
so many things i either dunno or forgot..
haiz..
tmr howto c mdm ee..
sian..

chem osp i din even touch a single page..
cham.. tmr still haf 3 periods of chem.. zzZ..

die le.. i haven study all the subjects fer next week..
my chi !!!
practical dun care le la..
bt my chi?!!!??!!
i wanna study dis hol de..
bt i sick den kept sleepin..
duh..

meet my doom..
this is the end
haiZzZ...

2005-09-11T03:42:00.000+08:00

sian.. i helping my lg do hw.. zZz..

yeah man..

at dis time..

and i sacrifice my hw time fer ya..

shd be hapi yeah..

u'll soon be out of the struggle..

and it'll be my turn to be in deep shit..

chem osp! by mon..

n i did none.. =(

cham..

amaths paper.. half done..

zZz

still got one more yr de emaths paper to go...

cham liao...

die le.. *sobx

2005-09-10T10:21:00.000+08:00

wah.. i took mrt alone to dover ytd.. wah biang.. 1h.. zZz...

den i wait wait wait.. wait fer another 1h den u pop out...

zZz... now i noe waitin while standin so xin ku de..

lyk kena punishment..

stood at the stupid poor ventilation de dover mrt..

will puke..

though da station is v nicely designed.. bt bo huang eh.. zua si sia.. lol..

2005-09-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

sian.. today i so sotong..

mum actually asked me to da bao lunch aft my lessons today..

and i forgot!

dotx..

miss short term memory blur queen..

zZz..

2005-09-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

i wanna recover!!!

my sore throat is terrible!

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER!

IT"S UNBEARABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

y everytime hol i ill de! *storm storm*

2005-09-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

sian.. ytd went amk poly clinic c doc.. bo bian.. i headache.. fever.. terrible + horrible sore throat! *sobx*

i took my Q no fer the room no.. wah.. 2993! at tt time it's lyk oni 2883.. dotx.. nida wait fer lyk 100+ pple.. sian.. i go walk walk 1st... walk liao go back.. still got 70+ pple.. sian.. go walk walk again.. went back.. still haf 40+ pple.. i sian le.. stay dere wait.. no seat to sit.. so stand lo.. stand until legs numb.. finally bout 1h.. my turn le.. take rm no.. went to wait fer my turn to consult doc.. went there.. so suay.. when it's bout my turn.. the doc gt sumtin on.. went out fer a while. wad the.. wait wait wait.. pple who came ltr den me gt to c doc le lo.. i still c dere wait wait wait.. wait till i headache.. phew.. doc came back.. tok to me halffway.. there dunno wad nurse or in charge person came in tok to her.. dotx.. waste my time.. den finish everything liao.. finally went to the pharmacy fer my medicine.. haha... wah.. my Q no is 8973.. zZz.. heng oni nida wait fer 50+ pp... zZz.. wait wait wait.. my turn le.. the clinic so niao.. oni gif me 10 tablets fer my throat.. 1 day eat 3.. liew.. i 101% confirm. 3 days ltr my throat still as bad.. zZz.. i oni left the clinic lyk 2h ltr.. sian nia..

today woke up.. my throat worst.. last nite whole nite slp until v xin ku.. i slpt at 8+ pm.. today 9+ den woke up.. nid go sch ma.. reach sch den noe mdm ee start lesson ltr.. sian lo.. i thot i late still rush nia.. zZz..

my throat v pain!!! *wail!*

sian.. today mdm ee commented about amaths paper..
then she kip lookin at me.. i dun dare look at her..
i noe i flunk paper 1 coz i din study ma.. was preparin fer geog..
den it's lyk.. alot qn i tin i noe howta do.. bt i dun haf the necessary knowledge due to the lack of revision.. sumore she sae she v disappointed in 2 students in band 3 maths.. aiya.. i 101% confirm one of them is me =)

oops..

nearly fell off frm the chair... lol

zZz..

2005-09-04T18:17:00.000+08:00

sian..

sore throat..

initially im quite heaty le..

now thx to the to all kinda of choc i ate ytd and today...

thx to da old chang kee stuff i bot ytd.. de chicken wrap and fried sotong.. *yum yum*

thx to da big bowl of tom yam ban mian.. *drools*

and now..

i've gt sore throat.. *pain!!!!

2005-09-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

hehe.. today chem paper.. so sian.. flunk it..

yeah.. bot new clothes.. a dress... a blouse.. and tees!

actually wan buy da halter neck shirt de... bt no $.. so had to give up on it...

bot a pair of new earrings too...

the happiest thing of all is.....

i gt a new haircut le!

haha.. i lyk my haircut! =)

hehe.. so happy...

2005-08-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

coffee and maggie mee are my best frenz during prelims! =)

2005-08-30T14:46:00.000+08:00

exams and more exams..

finally can sign in blog le..

i noe y i can't sign in le.. coz i block alot of things such as cookies.. ad.. until cannot work..

nvm.. dunno wad im tokin..

flunk my prelims..

had my amaths paper 2 today..

xpected.. the paper is a killer..

i regretted nt revising enuff fer my paper one..

haiz.. yawnz..

tmr still nida stay back aft sch to mit mrs teo.. yawnz..

2005-08-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

Haha.. thx mr ho! Fer da flowers!! (despite da stench) *huGx

2005-08-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

The o lvl eng oral.. dotx
Is maid agency I go sae catering service.. pengs..

2005-08-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

Sian.. pp celebrate 40th national day..

My hp spoil.. *sobx!

2005-08-08T16:11:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i miss u..!! lol..
good la.. u go malaysia gai gai..
dump me here..
lol... u ah.. dot dot dot...
sian..

this thurs OLVL ENG ORAL!
AHHH!

2005-08-06T14:58:00.000+08:00

ytd is 60th anniversery..

sian i was one of the ushers..

cannot watch performance, cannot enjoy the fun..

gotta work..

liew.. wear the cordshoe till my toes gt blisters..

sad... pain..

dinner still nid serve guest..

cannot eat..

c dem eat.. i drool...

*sobx*

sian.. today chem prac i broke a boiling tube..

mon already broke test tube..

zZz.. y i so clumsy? =(

bye bye $0.50

2005-08-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

yawnz.. i broke a test tube during chem prac..
i've actually promise myself dis yr not to brk anitin, noeing tt im a clumsy person...
i failed..

sianx..
bye bye $0.50

2005-07-29T20:07:00.000+08:00

whee... soooooooooooooo sad.. falcon lost.. 4th nia...

im soooooooooooooo sad.. dotx

Haha..

Liew..

I gt walk within the time limit is ren zhi yi jing.. lols

2005-07-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

this yr's band concert was a disappointment..

the performance is good..

bt nt so much fun compared to last yr..

sian

Was walkin to mrt aft the performance..

Feel so much loneliness.. haiz.. dunno y..
Lonely im so lonely, I have nobody, To call my own..

--> moi at amk mrt platform waitin fer frn

2005-07-21T17:02:00.000+08:00

Racial harmony!

Wore baju kurong..

V difficult to walk nia..

Kept trip over.. lol...

Bth, change bck to sch u during lunch.. haha..

Pon amaths weekly test..

Wait fer mrs tan 1h 30min.. sian le.. went home..
Think she'll be angry..

the ugli moi ---->

2005-07-17T09:48:00.000+08:00

ytd.. went back to sch..
zZz.. physics prac..
da exp kinda bo liao..
dotx.

aft tt rush to amk station mit pp..
den went novena sq..
b4 we went there, guess where we go walk walk..
tan tock seng hospital!
lols.. went there walk one round..
den went novena.. lols

novena there less than an hour den go liao.
nth walk de..
stupid.. the esprit there gt da black one for da wallet i wan.
d**n! suan le..
i oreadi haf the pink one le.. haiz..
saw da belt again.
so tempted to buy..
bt din bring $$$.. haiz..
$39.90 leh.. hahaz

aft tt went out took a bus..
dunno wad bus to take..
as long as it's double deck, gt space to sit can le..
so juz anihow board one. lol
i tin is bus 56 ah..
go marina centre..
sian lo..
halfway beach road kena blocked
coz of da ndp rehearsal..
sian.. kena chase down by the bus driver.
we walked all da way to esplanade.. den take mrt down jurong east.
went walk walk at IMM.. coz i wanna go daiso ma..
i wanna buy heart shaped cushion ma..
bt bt bt.. dun haf le!
hurmp..
so i bot other stuff lo..
aft tt go popular at da mrt station dere.. gt the stuff i nid den go hm lo..

i oni reach hm at 6.40pm.. =p

2005-07-14T19:39:00.000+08:00

haiz..
went amk central today...
wah.. tt stupid person made me wait fer so long..
stupid person.. wait 21min nia! zZz..
sian..

bot a lip gloss.. zZz.. sian nia.. nth to buy wad..
wan buy scrunchy bt wad a waste! dun haf da colors i wan.. wasted trip..
wan buy hairband oso dun haf.. pathetic nia..
nx time i dun wanna go amk central le.. zZz...

today maths test.. woah.. shiok nia..
confirm fail de!
i din study at all
8qn oni noe 1qn. pro hor!
i hand in to mrs tan.. she gif me tt grin..
hahaz.. funni nia..

yawnz.. tmr still gt eng test and wad emaths distinction test.
wad da hell! siao liao la..
dun care le la.. i ltr still wan watch tt superstar..!
hehe..

2005-07-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

die nia.. i woke up so late dis mornin.. i meant aftnoon.. zzZ
dun care la..
sian...

ytd went j8..
bot my esprit bag..
wanted to gt fluroscent orange or hot pink de..
bt dun haf..
so i was deciding b/w lime green or light purple..
in da end. gt purple..
set eyes on the esprit wallet..
bt haven buy yet..
haha..

met my senior b4 goin watson..
so envious of them..
Os over le..
lol...

im so fickled minded..
was in watson..
i actually decided on a lip gloss and two eyeshadow la..
bt think so long.. in the end dun wan buy lip gloss..
so liao lui.. lol..

so stupid nia..
4gt buy hairband...
zZz..
dunno when gt go minitoons..
i v lazy go out specially buy oni two hairbands..

went converse..
wah gt new design fer da sling bag and backpack le..
heng hols i din buy the old design..
or else sian half le.. haha
$32.90 fer da sling bag (the round round look like cylinder de)
quite cheap..
bt i haven buy yet..
wait i use the esprit de sian liao den buy..
haha...

at nite go out eat dinner wif family lo..
wa.. sharks' fins soup.. wheee...
i long time din eat le nia.. lol

sian..
now rainin..
yawnZ..

zZz

2005-07-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

my com is so lag

will vomit blood nia..

i start clearin the files and unused prog since jun hol

till now haven finish..

zZz..

juz woke up..

haiz..

haven eat breakfast

haven even washed up..

lol

*disappear*

2005-07-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

yay!
finally can update my blog le!
so happi!!

ahh...
ltr still nid go tuition...
*sobx

dis week so many maths test!
3 leh..
so sick of maths now..

so touched..
i finally passed my amaths test!
for log 15/20..
binomial dunno yet..
bt mrs tan sae din mention my name fer da retest..
so shd be passed le ba..
yay!!! haha..

flunk my chi test today..
zZz.. yawn..

tmr goin j8..
shoppin spree!!!
hehe.

nw goin bathe le!
reach home not long ago frm sch nia..
haven eat lunch!

*vanish*

2005-07-02T21:14:00.000+08:00

zZz.. went to my nephew's bday party juz nw..
god! so many kids!
bth nia..
i feel so old..

before the party start,
i went j8 ma..
on my way..
this d**n guy knocked into me..
wad the..
im not invisible lo
why purposely knocked into me..
my toe bleed lo..
d**n it..

j8 so many pp..
sian.
1st, i went ice lemon tee buy color ankle socks
aft tt mini toons to buy a waist pouch..
bt dun haf the one i wan..
so bot another to replace lo..
sian.. wan buy black hairband oso dun haf.. zZz
lastly went popular buy foolscap paper..
heavy nia..

return to sis's condo..
eat lo..
the kids were given the neon lite bracelet each..
i oso wan!
the purple one v nice..!
bt paiseh go take one..
cuz i too old le.. *sobx*
in the end
my sis gave me one..
bt is red de.. *sadx

aft tt, sing bday song..
i haven eat cake..
my ah ma n papa wan go hm le..
sian lo..
ice cream cake leh!
ice cream u noe..
haiz.. zZz..

nw.. so full...
yawn..
wan go bathe le..
so tired..

this week, every nite..
i slp b/w 2am - 4am..
nxt day go sch sian sian de..
lyk juz came out frm zoo de panda..
slp in klas..
slp so late coz me on fone ma..
sumone's fault lo.. =p

2005-07-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

i oni slpt at 7am.. din slp the whole nite.. im so tired now!

2005-06-25T15:09:00.000+08:00

finally can sign in le
aft 2 days..
ask guang de change pw..
haha..
he change the pw so difficult to rmb.
diaoz..

so tired.. i oni slpt at 6am !!!
hu's fault? ho guang de's fault la..
zZz..

now i owe him favour le..
zZz..

until now still haven recover frm my illness..
still haf cough..
haiz.. mon sch reopen le..
hw not done! ahhhhh!

okie.. nw sumone buggin me to stop writin..
den summore i kena suan by him!
hurmp..
angry le..
i hang up on u den u noe!
*bLeahx!

wah lao.. my com siao.. can't even update blog.. zZz
dis entry still nid ask dis suan me de guy help..
zZz..

dis last para is i kena force de
ya la.. u v good la.. help me reset pw..
v nice la..
1st tym c u soooo nice sia..
i so touched la..
ai si ni le la..
so good help me..
dotx..

happy le ma? =p
dun care u muz help me load ah.. =p

zZz.. ~ sleepy.. ~ zhu

2005-06-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

haiz.. im so sleepy now..
oni slpt at 5am..
hu's fault!!!
die la..
4 days to complete my hw b4 sch reopen!
4 days to complete eng, chi, phy, chem, lit, ss! ahhhhhh!
4 = si = die! *pengx*
haiz..
lit still nid the stupid presentation..
sec 4 le.. still do wad presetation..
waste my time..
freak nia..
zZz
ahhhhhhhhhh! i hate studyin!

im done

2005-06-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

finally done.. dis time round is reali done le..

hehe..

im so hungry

though i ate a bread le..

zZz..

bed time..

tmr c doc...

yawnZ..

niteZ!

pleasant dreamZ!

//wiish uppon a starr...

2005-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

im sooooooooooooooo bored..
i've finally decided.....................................
i'll c a doc tmr~!
hehe.. cough + flu + sore throat u c.. hmmm
boreD..

hey.. i miz u so much! yes.. U! zZz..
see dao kia.. hurmp..
u bo chap me.. haiz
sad... sad.. sad..
muz haf gone flirtin liao rite.. den pang seh mi
4gt me le hor.. fine! angry liao.. lols...

wishful thinking... zZz..

hw n more hw..
chem + eng + chi + phy + ss
practically everything i haf fer da hols are not done... sianZ!

i nid motivation!!!

aHhhhhHhhh

god muz hate me.. he cursed me fer eternity..

zZz...

performin a miracle in 4 days?
i can't!
ahhhhh...!

im bound to crash and die!

*sniff sniff*

juz change new blog skin

2005-06-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

haha. juz gt a new blog skin fer my bloggy! hehe..
dis is so cute.. thx to jenna.. help me find de! =)
wheee.. think i'll further improve it.. n put pic etc..
now lyk tt 1st ba..

wheee...

2005-06-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

finally.. edit finish liao.. gonna leave it lyk tt.. hehe.. yawn.. i wanna slp le.. kinda tired.. sick sia..
orh orh!!

yay

2005-06-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

finally.. my blog sumhow nicer than the previous one..
1st.. thx brandon fer helpin me redesign.. although it's a v rough one.. bt thx a mil!
haha.. 2nd i wan thx meizhu.. fer tellin me da tag board thingy.. am a IT idiot.. hehe
nxt.. howto load pic? =p
still figurin out.. hehe

zZz

2005-06-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

slp slp and slp.. slp lyk a pig..zzz
i slp more than 12h per day! pro hor..zzz
hw piling up.. wonder how am i goin to finish..
now no voice ~ voiceless..
how to do the recordin?!?
less than a wk nia!
die le *panic..

sianz

2005-06-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

im sick.. having cough and sore throat... zZz.. *dizzy*

wOoo

2005-05-23T10:44:00.000+08:00

well.. juz started dis blog.. so many pp start blogs.. so i decide to create one too... hehe.. am still figurin out howta use.. zZz

*- gAtes oF heAven -*